It's the Beginning of the New You

I wrote this note right away after saw it in @wisdomfeed somewhere in Instagram. January 7th, 2016, the date when I finally decided to start a fresh of me by myself, detached from his shadow.

"You don't have to remind someone to care. When you feel the gap in reciprocal effect- it truly does exist. If you give all of yourself it is only human to crave the some kind of fire in return. You're not supposed to be their world, but you're deserve to feel like their favourite part. Your idea of love begins to crumble when you put up with cheap love because you become a blinded victim to your own good intentions. What used to be and what's supposed to be, is not reality. Love requires a consistency by both people- bottom line. Sacrifices are to be made to make it better, but when it leads to unhappiness, that's not a healthy relationship- that's abandonship. It is unhealthy to be unhappy for too long. How they feel about you is how they treat you. Stop sacrificing who you are for what you're getting. You've been through too much and you know that you deserve better. You can't fix someone who makes you feel broken. Something really worth it, won't make you feel worthless. Close the door to let them know you care enough about yourself to walk away. This isn't the end, it's the beginning of something new- something better, something you can finally be proud of."

After that moment, I juggled around distracting myself, made myself busy. I realized there's always a hole part of me that can only be filled by him, or particularly the memories with him. :) I didn't regret I had the relationship. I couldn't ask more other than being grateful he ever came rejoice my days. It is still back and forth to the feeling of us or now being ourselves in separation. He's still good to me, but then, yes, I can't accept his strolling activities for long time without any news. It's not healthy for me. Probably also a burden for him knowing me waiting for him, if we were still together. So, yes, today, I strengthen my heart and mind to peacefully let him be what he wants, do what he loves to, and let me enjoy being my own self, the truest of me. I want me happy.